Central Download

What a difference a week can make. My outlook is a lot better than it was in my last blog post. The difficult life circumstances have not budged one bit but Im adjusting. Using my time wisely as a means of keeping myself busy with the right amount of productive distractions. And to those who have reached out to let me know Im not alone, you mean the world to me.

Black is often regarded as the saddest color on the spectrum. I dont doubt that it is, especially since its attached to the act of mourning. However, I find blue to be the most sorrowful hue of all. Maggie Nelsons Bluets says it better than I can:

157. The part I do remember: that the blue of the sky depends on the darkness of empty space behind it. As one optics journal puts it, "The color of any planetary atmosphere viewed against the black of space and illuminated by a sunlike star will also be blue." In which case blue is something of an ecstatic accident produced by void and fire.

Thats just one small section: you should really read the entire essay. Brilliant. All that to say, this is why Im wearing a blue dress. Im feeling better but Im still sad. And I think thats okay.